i wish...

to learn how to play the piano someday

recently i feel very disconnected from the outside world. not in the sense of not knowing what's going on in the world, i do still read the newspaper every now and then, but rather socially disconnected.

ever since sy and the girls went back i haven't been out with any other people that are not family at all. not even pik. somehow i just don't feel like going out. or keeping in touch, via whatever kind of methods you can name. not like i've got anything better to do at home also. sigh, now it's like if i'm thrown into a social situation i wouldn't know what to do with myself. and the thing is, i don't want to feel this way yet i am not doing anything to remedy the situation. i think reluctance and laziness are at work here.

accomodation search is still ongoing. i guess it contributes partly to my not-very-good mood too. i wish there are people to help, but then i know ultimately it's best to rely on yourself and not to pin so much hope or expectations on others. i learnt that the hard way.